Dr C called me this morning. He not only wanted to invite me to his housewarming - he also wants me to arrange it. Fix the food, the music, buy the booze and basically the works... He woke me up so I was caught at a weak moment so I said yes. We decided to meet this afternoon to plan it.
I went over to his place, haven't been there in a while now. As we sit down with a cup of coffee he breaks the news. He is seeing someone new and she is probably coming to the party that I am arranging. What can I say?!?! What was I supposed to say?!?!
It didn't feel like it was the right time to say "I think I made a mistake, I want you back in my life" so I smiled and asked if she knew that I "the ex-girlfriend" was going to be at his housewarming. He said it was cool so I believed him.
Right now I'm spending most of my time trying to remember the bad times and the bad things about him...Like no public displays of affection, no kisses, actually no affection at all unless in bed...
Damn, I miss him but I'll be fine. I know I will because I have to.
Now I need to look ever better at the party. I need to look my best and be a cool, calm and collected party girl.
Oh well, I'll wear my new fierce shoes and a cool dress and I'll be all that :)
I just wish I had more guts so I could tell him what I waned even if it's way too late.
Sweet dreams
Song of the day: Remember the time - Michael Jackson
2 comments:
I think you need a change of scene. I don't think it is cool to put you or the new in that situation. It is just a very very wierd act by a temporary insane or a full on social mad man.
KvH
Full on social mad man sounds perfect.
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